Good evening!
Its one in the morning so this probably wont be very long for now seeing as I am in my little brothers room because that where the computer is. Yes, I am staying with my family for now and I kicked my sister out of her bed so I could have it, hey, I am the oldest after all.... The last couple of days have been "nice". I am developing an ulcer since I am just ssooooo stressed out because everything is kind of uncertain and messy. My bleeding stomach must have started when I heard the news about my parents splitting up and now they are in the process of getting a divorce, can you imagine, after 27 years together and 5 kids? Well the bleeding continued and just got worse when I found out that I still had my old job at the club Stick waiting for me and I have another one as well and now I have to chose between the city and the country..and then, I found out that there is a rumor going around that I was two timing the nicest guy in the world here in Iceland and one of my "friends" has been saying shit about me to everyone and everything. What a fun thing to hear when you are in the States and cant really do anything about it....Well I have confronted them about it now and told the guy I wasn't seeing anybody at the same time as him but still, this is just excactly my point of what's wrong with Iceland.
*****I guess I really am just a big fish in a little pond************
OH AND I am homeless, they are going to have to staple my stomach together so the bleeding will subside.
Broken home, homeless, starving and broke, thats me right now, depressing or what? OH just let me bitch a little, I need to vent out somewhere and where better then here? :)
I have been playing shrink to my girl posse since I got back, I totally love it!! Then at least I don't have to worry about my predicament and I think giving advice is more my thing then listening to my own,it just works better for me.
I went to The University of Iceland today and talked to one of the guidence counselors for my prospective attendance next fall...she was very nice and helpful but secretly I hoped that she would tell me to run the other way and go travel and see the world and just study later...But no, she helped me pick my courses...but I don't have to decide before 4th of July (how ironic is that) and that's probably what I will end on doing, waiting until the last minute, u know me.
Should I stay or should I go now? If I stay there will be trouble, if I stay there will be double, so come on and let me know, should I stay or should I go?
I love my country, I just feel its a little bit too small..for me at least and I guess that's the reasons the movie Big Fish had such a huge impact on me, I want to be one of those people who always has a story to tell.... How wants to help write it ? :)
Although I have been concerned about my figure upon returning to Iceland my peeps seem to be responding quite well and have given me positive feedback, they say that they prefer me packing it in the back then being around 100 pounds, I am not sure what I think though, I think I like the 100 pounds better then the 120 (which I think I am right now)... any comments?
***Can anybody get me a job with a magazine or a little newspaper where I could have a dear Jane or a Carrie column...Please, I mean I am open to starting out running errands and getting coffee and donuts....ANYBODY?***** oh and my cities of choice are LA and NY , preferably :)
what should I do with my life........?
talk to ya tomorrow
much love -let it burn-