this morning, shortly after midnight, the state of
california executed stanley "tookie" williams for the
murder of 4 people in 1979, a crime which he says he
did not commit. williams, founder of the notorious
street gang the crips, was convicted almost 25 years
ago and had exhausted all legal appeals. arnold
schwarzenegger, the governor of the state of
california, personally rejected williams´ clemency
appeal and ordered that the murder of williams
proceed.

this appeal for pardon was based on the fact that
over the three decades williams has spend on death row
the prisoner was completely rehabilitated. he
renounced the gangster lifestyle which he had helped
to define. he authored award winning children´s books
warning against the dangers of gang violence. he was
nominated for the nobel peace prize because he opposed
every kind of violence, unlike mr. schwarzenegger who
authorized williams´ murder hiding behind the
shameful,cowardly veil of the law.

the state-sponsored murder of stanley "tookie"
williams, besides erasing a man´s very existence and
his dignity, makes a joke of the principle of
redemption through rehabilitation. here we have a man
who spent a quarter of a century in vociferous
denunciation of violence and in the end this counted
for nothing.

the very practice of capital punishment is abhorrent
and shall be regarded in the annals of history as
evidence of the barbarism of the societies that allow
its practice. indeed, every single member of western
civilization has rejected state-sponsored murder.
every member, that is, save for the united states of
america. the united states is also one of the very few
countries in the world that allows for the execution
of children. we are in good company here: this
barbarous fraternity consists of china, congo, iran,
nigeria, pakistan, saudi arabia, and yemen. indeed,
america is the most enthusiastic murderer of children
in the world: 19 children were executed in america
between 1990-2003.

scientific advances in recent years have revealed that
many innocent people have been exectued. 122 wrongly
convicted people have been released from death rows
across america since 1973. how many more innocents
were not released and met tragic, criminal deaths. a
few brave leaders, such as governor ryan of illinois,
have been courageous enough to call an end to the
cruel practice of state sponsored murder (mr. ryan
commuted the death sentences of every single death row
inmate in his state to life imprisonment) but on the
whole, american leaders refuse to remedy this sad
situation out of fear of losing the confidence of
conservative voters.

a german teenager wise beyond her years recently
commented to me that whenever a government carries out
a crime with the approval of the people, however
passive that approval may be, then all of the people
of that society share in the blame for that
government´s crimes. therefore, every american who
supports the practice of state sponsored murder has
the blood of innocents on their hands.

the hypocrisy of half of the population (polls say
about that many people support capital punishment) of
my country makes me absolutely sick. these morally
ambiguous people often quote the bible´s "eye for an
eye, tooth for a tooth" mantra in defense of the death
penalty. the irrelevance of a 2000 year old work of
fiction aside, doesn´t that same book hold as one of
its central tenets that "thou shalt not kill?"

once again i find myself sickened by the actions of a
country that history will judge as the greatest
perpetrator of injustice in the world in our age. i
find myself frustrated and almost at times ashamed to
be a citizen of such a country. and i find that the
argument i have often used to comfort myself- that no
matter how horrendous the government and policies of
the united states may be, the american people are an
overwhelmingly compassionate, warm, generous bunch-
crumbling in the face of such facts as public
acceptance (at least 50% of the public, in any case)
of state sponsored murder.

the united states of america is the world´s greatest
practitioner of state sponsored murder. there is
murder in iraq and afghanistan in the name of fighting
terror by inflicting far greater terror and killing
far more innocents that any osama bin laden could ever
dream of, murder of people in poor agrarian societies
by agricultural subsidies to rich american food
producers, murder by greedy financial institutions who
impose conditions designed to enrich a powerful elite
while keeping billions of others in poverty, the
murder of the very environment of the earth by being
the only western nation to reject the kyoto protocol
on global warming- and the list could go on
indefinitely.

if i diverge greatly it is only in the service of my
point. how on earth, in 2005, can a nation which
claims to espouse the lofty ideals of "life, liberty,
and the pursuit of happiness" allow such state
sponsored murder to continue? it is a great shame that
history will judge us for. with great shame we should
judge ourselves for it.

and so back to mr. williams. when the executioners
attempted to insert the injection tube in his arm, a
process that normally takes 2 minutes, they needed 11
minutes. williams shook his head in frustration and
asked "are you guys doing this thing right?" stanley
"tookie" williams was 51 years old. he proclaimed his
innocence until the very end.

-BRETT

thank you Indra, good point.

As far as resiloutions go I have not been all to good at keeping them....I started the year with drinking gallons of water, waking up early and anticipating school, going to bed relatively early and minamizing my consumption of beer....not that those were my only one but still those were a few of them. I admit it, I am weak...I like staying up late and drinking everything else under the sun instead of water.....and my mind has been wondering away from physiology to exotic places with a warm sun and dreamy white beaches...but then gravity pulls me back to Iceland and I slam into the ground full force, forcefully drinking water and frugally saving money...

i opened a thing at myspace the other day but havent set it up, i just went to check up on people but so is this like the biggest thing in LA or something? everybody seems to have one. so i am working on getting a resumé up and running and we will see if it works...

on that matter, I have been thinking about taking a class in creative writing in NYU next summer....I have about a zillion ideas floating around for next summer but thats one of them, please feel free to give me advice...i need it.

on a happier and less confusing note, I am experiencing a drowning sensation at school and I have finally given up on men in any form shape or matter, i think the song how bizarre sums these nocturanal unmonogamist creatures correctly.

how long do you think u could live without working granted you have minimum money to live off of? i think i could go for at least 3 years and in that time I would write a couple of books and maybe even finish reading all the ones I want to....i mean i think it would be quite nice, I would just go to some little island where the weather is nice and stay there and relax and just zone out and on my return home I would publish my books and everybody would love them and the would be the best selling christmas book around.....i would get a book deal in New York and I could just fly between there and LA, writing books and tv drama series, semi based on my own life.... sorry the thought process got ahead of my there..... but think about it...

waiting for a text is a meaningless as looking for a answer in a Pauly Shore movie, I need a makeover, a makeover of my mind and soul. I started a soul makeover last week but that went as well as Rosanne having a lipo, as soon as a little handsome devil comes strolling around the corner I say fuck my makeover and go for the little bugger. which offcourse lands me here and I go around in circles thinking about him, me , us, future, past and watch every episode of S A T C for refrence and possibly guidance.... Carrie drew me to the conclusion that there is no conclusion, you just have to go for it until your body and soul are drained and your are left a mere shadow of your former self with a little heart thats shattered into a million pieces but on the upside, you lost weight. I mean, everybody deserves a second chance as long as your heart gives the okay, right? I think its about dating karma, if I give a guy that is a freakin tasmanian devil a second chance to see that maybe theres something good in him, I will be given a second chance by the guy that sees me as a rambling lunatic with at least half a dozen personalities..

or maybe there is just one chance, make it or brake it. the other stuff is just complicating things and procrastinating the unevitable brake up....i dunno, I am putting way to much pressure on these things and just go with the flow...... Well I was doing just that until last week, two evil male tried to play Cinderella on me and get me to swallow there apple.... This Cinderella has woken up and spit out that apple, all by herself!
its going to be me myself and I again and fuck those arrogant son of***** that think that when they say bend over I smile, no way bobby.

after all that venting of bitterness I leave you for now my loves .....

not so much burned as scarred and undecided....

sigga dögg

My New Years resolution is to be a better blogger on this here blog! OH and visit my friends abroad...Hopefully I will make it all the way over the sea to sunny Cali.

This year has been quite eventful indeed, 2004 has been the year of the single femme who for the first time since she can remember, or started to acknowledge the other..sex, has not had a steady homme for months at a time, let alone a whole year! La vie le femme!
I am feeling very Moulin Rouge with Ms.Edith Piaf at the moment, cant help feeling that she catches my single femme feeling accurately and I find my self longing for a bohemian lifestyle spending the day reading, listening to music from the era of the good ole days and maybe having a bite of cheese....So French at the moment..
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back to the matter at hand, a new year, 2005. A new year with new opportunities. A fresh start. A way of being reborn.
I have decided to make 2005 my year, which all of you can happily participate in along with me, but first and foremost, my year. This will be the year of gaining a higher learning and understanding of myself and others around me. I will continua to pursue my one and only passion, psychology, in school, in Iceland for the time being, I have to ,at some point, keep my feet on the ground and my head out of the clouds and my head and feet must be firmly planted here, way up north.
That is not to say that I will be here and only here ohhh no no no no, I am actually eagerly waiting for somebody to offer me a job abroad next summer, doing whatever, just as long as it is giving. The search for meaning continues as does the search for questions I think I already have the answer to.
I might even invest....Start nesting a little bit, fun and fearless as Cosmo would say.

2005 is the year where my sister will have her barw mitsha, my best friend is getting married and graduating from school, my dad is getting out of prison, my family pattern will continue to change.... ahhh exciting stuff..

oh must jet, see you in 2005 with a lot of updates...

au revoir mon amies!
Sigga Dögg

it´s my birthday, we gonna party like its my birthday....

yup yup peeps, its my b-day next Friday, the 10th, so for allu out there, I am thinking of throwing a bash for myself and you are all welcome to crash at my crib, just fly your ass over..

talk to ya

sigga dögg (feelin very uhh...r&b at the moment)

are u serious people?! re-electing Bush!!!

i am lost for words, dumbfound in fact.


bon appetite, freedom fries

Boy sees girl on the other side of town
An Ice princess with her very own crown
He's too good to be taking such a chance
'Cause she walks the streets without feelings,
just some mind games to put him in a trance
Sigga I remember holding you just yesterday
But you're memory is all that I have today
I was hoping this is just a dream,
but there's no ticket back
I feel a cold wind blowing,
our future looks black
Now I remember the times that have gone by
And promises we once made
I can’t figure out, why nothing stays the same
You said we hit it off like a house on fire
But then you decided to change your desires
There must be someone else you saw
Someone you thought could give you something I couldn’t
Maybe I should have done some of the things that I told myself I shouldn’t
You said I am without a doubt one of you closest friends
Than why did what we’ve shared have to end
There isn't anything I wouldn't have done for you
We could have taken what was getting old and made it new
You said this must be fate
But something is telling me we just had our last date
We even spent a night together, with my best friend
The next morning you apologized and said it would never happen again
And that’s when it all began,
I started to let my guard down
I though I was the only boy for you in town.
You told me I was your first pick,
But than you turn around and make my stomach feel sick
You said you loved my brown eyes and the way I style my hair
I should have known from the start, your intentions weren’t fair
And whats this about you never telling me a lie?
Did all that crap about not feeling romantic and cuddly just pass you by?
What was the real reason we didn’t kiss goodbye
If I had another chance tonight I'd try to tell you that the things we had were right
Time can't erase the feelings that we’ve shared
But I hope it gives you time to realize just how much I cared.

Maybe Time may find us in tomorrow looking for today…