Good evening!
Its one in the morning so this probably wont be very long for now seeing as I am in my little brothers room because that where the computer is. Yes, I am staying with my family for now and I kicked my sister out of her bed so I could have it, hey, I am the oldest after all.... The last couple of days have been "nice". I am developing an ulcer since I am just ssooooo stressed out because everything is kind of uncertain and messy. My bleeding stomach must have started when I heard the news about my parents splitting up and now they are in the process of getting a divorce, can you imagine, after 27 years together and 5 kids? Well the bleeding continued and just got worse when I found out that I still had my old job at the club Stick waiting for me and I have another one as well and now I have to chose between the city and the country..and then, I found out that there is a rumor going around that I was two timing the nicest guy in the world here in Iceland and one of my "friends" has been saying shit about me to everyone and everything. What a fun thing to hear when you are in the States and cant really do anything about it....Well I have confronted them about it now and told the guy I wasn't seeing anybody at the same time as him but still, this is just excactly my point of what's wrong with Iceland.
*****I guess I really am just a big fish in a little pond************
OH AND I am homeless, they are going to have to staple my stomach together so the bleeding will subside.
Broken home, homeless, starving and broke, thats me right now, depressing or what? OH just let me bitch a little, I need to vent out somewhere and where better then here? :)
I have been playing shrink to my girl posse since I got back, I totally love it!! Then at least I don't have to worry about my predicament and I think giving advice is more my thing then listening to my own,it just works better for me.
I went to The University of Iceland today and talked to one of the guidence counselors for my prospective attendance next fall...she was very nice and helpful but secretly I hoped that she would tell me to run the other way and go travel and see the world and just study later...But no, she helped me pick my courses...but I don't have to decide before 4th of July (how ironic is that) and that's probably what I will end on doing, waiting until the last minute, u know me.
Should I stay or should I go now? If I stay there will be trouble, if I stay there will be double, so come on and let me know, should I stay or should I go?
I love my country, I just feel its a little bit too small..for me at least and I guess that's the reasons the movie Big Fish had such a huge impact on me, I want to be one of those people who always has a story to tell.... How wants to help write it ? :)
Although I have been concerned about my figure upon returning to Iceland my peeps seem to be responding quite well and have given me positive feedback, they say that they prefer me packing it in the back then being around 100 pounds, I am not sure what I think though, I think I like the 100 pounds better then the 120 (which I think I am right now)... any comments?
***Can anybody get me a job with a magazine or a little newspaper where I could have a dear Jane or a Carrie column...Please, I mean I am open to starting out running errands and getting coffee and donuts....ANYBODY?***** oh and my cities of choice are LA and NY , preferably :)
what should I do with my life........?
talk to ya tomorrow
much love -let it burn-

oh and I busted up my finger so typing is extra hard and I kind of still have a hang over buzzing so thus typos (typing errors if I spelled that wrong :)
arrigato

Good morning people of the world!
How evetful Iceland has been since my return, I guess you might say I was missed, at least thats what I like to think....heres my weekend :)
FRIDAY
We land in Iceland way to early in the morning and my entire family was at the airport to pick me up. We had a nice big family breakfast at my grandmas house so that was really nice. I didnt really feel tired but as soon as I sat down in the couch I was a gonner, I slept all day only to be awaken to go and decorate for my aunst wedding, jey jey. This is stuff I love to do, I should so be a wedding planner, it is in my nature I swear. The decorating went well and that night we all met up again at my grandams and had a barbeque, very nice. I went out kind of late because I was busy making avideo for my aunt that was played at the reception but out I went thought late it was :) Iceland stays up late..FYI... I just kind of walked around downtown chcecking out the clubs and meeting up with my friends to tell them of my adventures, and to get complemented on my fabulous tan....Got home around , very early on Iceland time..
oh and yes, it was light out until midnight, sunny even and kind of warm.
SATURDAY
busy busy day. I woke up early and washed my moms car and started to get myself ready for the wedding. All the women on my moms side met at my aunts house where everybody got their hair and make up done , so much fun!! I lokked really nice, even if I do say so myself,my ensamble was a huge hit ( as I had expected) and very Helena of Troy :) The wedding was beautiful and everything went according to plan, the food was awesome (my dad took care of that), everybody looked so nice and the band was good too, so so happy... I didnt drink to much at the wedding but when my friend picked me up and we went into the city is when trouble began......I know I wanted to go all out but what happened is not something I had forseen......
I think wasted and shitfaced to not cover the phase I went thru with my drinking that night, I took it to a whole new level. I was so drunk that I can only throw a couple of scenarios your way to maybe give you a clue
*I sat on the bar throwing ice cubes at everybody
*I was in the town center singing Let´s go crazy while lying down on the sidewalk eating pizza at 7 in the morning
*I started throwing trash at some guy that was passed out on a bench somewhere
*I danced on top of my bar and broke a couple of things in the process(a glas, ashtray..)
*I probably bugged everybody and everything that came near me by singing..loud.. all the time
*I managed to lose my shoes and walked around barefoot
*I lost one set of eyelashes
*I talked to people and professed my love and I dont even know those peoples names... scary...
So you might say I had a night out...hmmm....
It all ended with a hang over...late afternoon SUNDAY..
thatisnt to say that I didnt wake up until in the afternoon, oh no,I woke up at noon and had my friend Arna pick me up and we went to Pizza Hut (the only place to go to with the girls when youre really hung over) and just sat there eating and moaning.. strange combo. Then SUPRISE it was really sunny and nice out so we went to the park and just hung out there, a perfect Sunday (hang-over). Then last night I met up with my girl club and that was fun as always, a lot of gossiping and chatting going on, something I tend to like from time to time, girltalk...
Today will be hectic trying to plan what the hell to do with my life, any suggestions? feel free to comment, I need help.
much love
Sigga Dögg back in Iceland and tearing it up

Oh my god, I am sooooo hung-over!!!! partying it up in Iceland until 7 this morning and yes it was sunny by that time :) i will tell u all about it tomorrow...I cant really type right now... shiver shiver...